THE SWELLS IN AN OCEANIC FIRE FLOWER OF BLOOD...VASO CONGESTION AWARENESS OF CONVULSIVE CONTRACTIVENESS...IT IS THE URGE AND STRAINING AGAINST IN MOUNTING TEMPOS OF MUSCLE VAGINAL SPASMS...
IT IS OVERCOMING FEAR AND ANGST IN A QUEST OF VITAL SEXUAL FULLNESS...SPONTANEITY PLEASURE...
8*8'S AND LEMNISCATES...THE BLOCK ZONINGS OF ENTRANCE 'TRANCES' AND MERIDIAN MEDIATION CORRIDORINGS...THE ROOM PATHING AND THE SMOKE AND MIRRORS OF BEING WALLED AND WALLINGS OF THE SHAME FORTRESSINGS...DORIS LESSING, THE GOLDEN NOTEBOOK 1962...
PAUL BEGAN TO RELY ON MANIPULATING HER EXTERNALLY, ON GIVING ELLA CLITORAL ORGASMS. VERY EXCITING.YET THERE WAS ALWAYS A PART OF HER THAT RESENTED IT. BECAUSE SHE FELT THAT THE FACT HE WANTED TO, WAS AN EXPRESSION OF HIS INSTINCTIVE DESIRE NOT TO COMMIT HIMSELF TO HER...A VAGINAL ORGASM IS ALL EMOTION AND NOTHING ELSE, FELT AS EMOTION AND EXPRESSED IN SENSATIONS THAT ARE INDISTINGUIHABLE FROM EMOTION. THE VAGINAL ORGASM IS A DISSOLVING IN A VAGUE, DARK GENERALIZED SENSATION LIKE BEING SWIRLED IN A WARM WHIRLPOOL. THERE ARE SEVERAL DIFFERENT SORTS OF CLITORAL ORGASMS AND THEY ARE MORE POWERFUL[A MALE WORD] THAN THE VAGINAL ORGASM. THERE CAN BE A THOUSAND THRILLS, SENSATIONS ETC., BUT THERE IS ONLY ONE REAL FEMALE ORGASM AND THAT IS WHEN A MAN FROM HIS WHOLE NEED AND DESIRE TAKES A WOMAN AND WANTS ALL HER RESPONSE...
BUT WHEN SHE TOLD HIM SHE HAD NEVER EXPERIENCED WHAT SHE HAD INSISTED ON CALLING 'A REAL ORGASM' TO ANYTHING LIKE THE SAME DEPTH BEFORE HIM, HE INVOLUNTARILY FROWNED AND REMARKED... 'DO YOU KNOW THERE ARE EMINENT PHYSIOLOGISTS WHO SAY WOMEN HAVE NO PHYSICAL BASIS FOR VAGINAL ORGASM?
'THEY DON'T KNOW MUCH, DO THEY'
IT IS THE EXCEPTION THAT MAKES THE RULE...THE COMMUNITY GLAZED/DAZED IN MASS-OCCUR MADNESS AND HOODWINK DECEPTIONS...THE PHOTO-OPS AND THE NAME GOSSIP CASTRATIONS OF PRESENCE AS THE BUFFER CLASS OF MEDIUM AVATAR PERFORMERS DAZZLE...........
IT IS SEXUALITY THAT IS INHIBITED IN ROLE, PERFORMANCE AND EMULATION AS MUCH AS BLOCKED BY RELIGION AND SOCIAL RULES...
IT IS NO CENSORSHIP IN CONCEPTS AS ARTIST REALITY...DEMOCRACY..THE REPRESSIONS OF FALSE IDOLS AND RIGID TRUE BELIEVERS OF THEIR DOCTRINES...DOGMAS AND TERRORS OF REACTIVITY FORMATIONS...
FEAR EATS THE SOUL............
IT IS POWERLESSNESS FEARS THAT MAKE POWER SEEKING GREATER THAN LOVE...IT IS CONTROL THAT PRECLUDES BEING ABLE TO BE IN AS IS.....IT IS SELF DECEPTION IN 'CERTAINTY' OF THE DEFINED THAT COMPELS ADHERENCE IN A MAGNETIC BLINDNESS...IT IS 'WALLING' AS SHE IS WALLED IN REARINGS BEHIND THE FIRES THAT PRECLUDE HER REAL SEXUAL AWAKENING...IT IS RAGE IN CONTROL AS THE WOMAN FILLED WITH CREATIVE ENERGIES IS GREATER THAN THE WOMAN SEEKING 'SEXUAL SATISFACTION'...
IT IS A DEATH NELL OF CONTROL SUPPRESSIONS INTO MASTURBATORY SELF ABSORPTIONS IN THE INABILITY TO DIFFERENTIATE AND CONNECT...IT IS THE MANIPULATIONS OF HUNGERS AND THE DISTORTION CLOCKS OF GHOST TEMPOS AS WITHDRAWAL FROM LIVE IS FEAR EXAGGERATIONS AND VULNERABILITY TO ALONENESS...
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