Wednesday, December 23, 2009

'A NEW MYSTERY'...

IT IS HARASSMENT IN A CONTROLLED ENFORCEMENT OF CONSTANCY...THE COOL FIRE ACTIVATIONS AND ALTERATIONS, THE CORRIDORINGS OF MERIDIAN STREAMS IN PATTERNS OF EXPECTANCY AND IMPOSITIONS...
IT IS DOLL AND CAKE...ACHE IN FEARS OF VANITY VULNERABILITY...FOR WHO IS ACOUSTICALLY STRONG ENOUGH TO BE REAL...TO HAVE IRE GREATER THAN ANGST AND ANGERS...
FOR WHO TAKES RESPONSIBILITY FOR EROS AND SEEKS ORGASM INTIMACY OF WILL CONNECTION...AS THE NIGHTMARE OF MASTURBATORY DISSOCIATIONS IN PROLONGED ADOLESCENCE RIDES THE WAVES OF CRAZE AND CRAVE IN A MIMESIS IMITATIVENESS OF EXTERNALIZED DISPLAYZ...
TITRATE...IN CHEMISTRY, THE EXACT AMOUT OF A STANDARD SOLUTION NECESSARY TO REACT FULLY WITH A SOLUTION OF UNKNOWN CONCENTRATION...IN THERAPY, THE AMOUNT THAT CAN BE FELT AND INTEGRATED BY A PATIENT IN A SESSION...ARTHUR JANOV-PRIMAL SCREAM

THE TIT-RATE TRAIT...VEIN/VAIN/VANITY PATTERNING AND UNVEILINGS...


'I DIDN'T KNOW WHERE I WAS GOING. BUT I KNEW WHAT I NEEDED. I NEEDED A NEW LAND, A NEW RACE, A NEW LANGUAGE, AND ALTHOUGH I COULDN'T HAVE PUT IT INTO WORDS THEN, I NEEDED A NEW MYSTERY'-JOHN FOWLES THE 'MAGUS'

Sunday, December 20, 2009

IN THE CAT'S EYE

ANYONE THAT DOES NOTHING BUT OBEY CEASES TO BE HEARD-LUCE IRAGARAY

TO GO TO REIGN OF CONFUSION



SEEING INTO REIGN AS EMPTINESS IN RAIN OF CONFUSION...GOOGLE LINK...


JOURNEYING INTO THE CENTER OF THE WORLD... THE REFLECTED MIRRORINGS WITHIN...THE BOUNCING LIGHTS IN THE CAT'S EYE IN THE COOL FIRE ACOUSTICAL BLINDINGS...IT IS THE BALANCE OF ADAPTATIONAL ADJUSTMENTS TO FORTRESSINGS OR HEALINGS OF PRESENCE...


SNOW MELT IN DREAMS ECHO DEEPLY 7 MINUTE PHOTO ESSAY


THE HEAT OF EMOTIONAL INVOLVEMENT...LOVE ENERGIES IN WILL OF PRESENCE

ENCOUNTER RINGINGS IN SECRETION SENSES OF RECOGNIZING AROUSALS WITHIN AND BEYOND BELIEF SYSTEMS...THE PRIMAL ACTIVATES IN THE AWAKENINGS OF THE DENIED, SUPPRESSES, UNLIVED...THE SHUT DOWN AND BLOCKED AS IN THE TENETS OF 'ALL' OR 'SOMETHING'...
FOR SHE IS ENGULFED IN 'MOTHER CONSCIOUSNESS'...TRAPPED IN PERPETUITY AS 'DANGER IS ALWAYS NEAR'...THE GREAT FEARING AND WALLING AS SHE IS BEHIND THE WALLINGS THAT PRECLUDE HER REAL SEXUAL AWAKENING...SHE MEDIATES TO THE IMAGE GREATER THAN HER COURAGE TO OVERTHROW THE IMPOSITION ORDERS OF BELIEFS AND CERTAINTY 'MIND SETS'...
TO BREAK FREE AND MOVE TO THE UNRECOGNIZED AND UNDEVELOPED POTENTIAL MEANS ENCOUNTERS WITH GUIDES, ANIMALS, DIVINITIES, FORMS OF NON-ORDINARY AND BEINGS OF AVATAR MEDIATIONS...
TO REFUSE THE CALL TO GROWTH IS THE WAY OF THE NEER DO WELL' OR 'PSYCHOPATH' BOGGED DOWN IN THE WATERS OF UNCONSCIOUSNESS...THE 'FREE RIDER' STRATEGY OF DRIFTS AND DISTANCINGS THAT 'BURY REALNESS IN CORRIDOR CHANNELLINGS OF INTENSITY ANAESTHESIA...
IT IS ALIVENESS IN REAL EMOTIONALITY OCCURRING IN AND THROUGH INVOLVEMENT...THE HEAT AND CONNECTION DEPTHS WHERE RISK IS IN THE CRISIS...WHERE OPPORTUNITY IS HEART IN STRUGGLE TO REALIZE...IT IS FANTASY GIVING WAY TO BEING FULLY IN TRUINGS OF GROWTH OUT OF DISTORTION TEMPOS...

THE PSYCHE CLOCKS OF DISTORTION...

Friday, December 18, 2009

'A' IN 'AL CO HAUL' TEMPOS OF FIREWATER STREAMINGS


THE ECHOIC IN FEARS AND VANITY...GENERATIVE OUT OF THE SHADOWS WITHIN

THE SWELLS IN AN OCEANIC FIRE FLOWER OF BLOOD...VASO CONGESTION AWARENESS OF CONVULSIVE CONTRACTIVENESS...IT IS THE URGE AND STRAINING AGAINST IN MOUNTING TEMPOS OF MUSCLE VAGINAL SPASMS...
IT IS OVERCOMING FEAR AND ANGST IN A QUEST OF VITAL SEXUAL FULLNESS...SPONTANEITY PLEASURE...
8*8'S AND LEMNISCATES...THE BLOCK ZONINGS OF ENTRANCE 'TRANCES' AND MERIDIAN MEDIATION CORRIDORINGS...THE ROOM PATHING AND THE SMOKE AND MIRRORS OF BEING WALLED AND WALLINGS OF THE SHAME FORTRESSINGS...
DORIS LESSING, THE GOLDEN NOTEBOOK 1962...
PAUL BEGAN TO RELY ON MANIPULATING HER EXTERNALLY, ON GIVING ELLA CLITORAL ORGASMS. VERY EXCITING.YET THERE WAS ALWAYS A PART OF HER THAT RESENTED IT. BECAUSE SHE FELT THAT THE FACT HE WANTED TO, WAS AN EXPRESSION OF HIS INSTINCTIVE DESIRE NOT TO COMMIT HIMSELF TO HER...A VAGINAL ORGASM IS ALL EMOTION AND NOTHING ELSE, FELT AS EMOTION AND EXPRESSED IN SENSATIONS THAT ARE INDISTINGUIHABLE FROM EMOTION. THE VAGINAL ORGASM IS A DISSOLVING IN A VAGUE, DARK GENERALIZED SENSATION LIKE BEING SWIRLED IN A WARM WHIRLPOOL. THERE ARE SEVERAL DIFFERENT SORTS OF CLITORAL ORGASMS AND THEY ARE MORE POWERFUL[A MALE WORD] THAN THE VAGINAL ORGASM. THERE CAN BE A THOUSAND THRILLS, SENSATIONS ETC., BUT THERE IS ONLY ONE REAL FEMALE ORGASM AND THAT IS WHEN A MAN FROM HIS WHOLE NEED AND DESIRE TAKES A WOMAN AND WANTS ALL HER RESPONSE...

BUT WHEN SHE TOLD HIM SHE HAD NEVER EXPERIENCED WHAT SHE HAD INSISTED ON CALLING 'A REAL ORGASM' TO ANYTHING LIKE THE SAME DEPTH BEFORE HIM, HE INVOLUNTARILY FROWNED AND REMARKED... 'DO YOU KNOW THERE ARE EMINENT PHYSIOLOGISTS WHO SAY WOMEN HAVE NO PHYSICAL BASIS FOR VAGINAL ORGASM?

'THEY DON'T KNOW MUCH, DO THEY'





SOW AND REAP...ANGST DYING EVERYDAY...TEMPOS OF LOSS AND DEFENSES THAT WALL AWAY VITALITY...TENETS AND DOGMAS THAT SUFFOCATE...IT IS THE TERROR IN PUNISHMENT THAT KEEPS THE INFANTILIZATION AND ARRESTED IN PLACE...THE TREACHERY OF THE NEEDED LOVE BEING TAKEN AWAY'...THE POWER GREATER THAN LOVE RUTHLESSNESS THAT IS LEARNED FROM PARENTAL TYRANNY.........

IT IS THE EXCEPTION THAT MAKES THE RULE...THE COMMUNITY GLAZED/DAZED IN MASS-OCCUR MADNESS AND HOODWINK DECEPTIONS...THE PHOTO-OPS AND THE NAME GOSSIP CASTRATIONS OF PRESENCE AS THE BUFFER CLASS OF MEDIUM AVATAR PERFORMERS DAZZLE...........

IT IS SEXUALITY THAT IS INHIBITED IN ROLE, PERFORMANCE AND EMULATION AS MUCH AS BLOCKED BY RELIGION AND SOCIAL RULES...

IT IS NO CENSORSHIP IN CONCEPTS AS ARTIST REALITY...DEMOCRACY..THE REPRESSIONS OF FALSE IDOLS AND RIGID TRUE BELIEVERS OF THEIR DOCTRINES...DOGMAS AND TERRORS OF REACTIVITY FORMATIONS...

FEAR EATS THE SOUL............

IT IS POWERLESSNESS FEARS THAT MAKE POWER SEEKING GREATER THAN LOVE...IT IS CONTROL THAT PRECLUDES BEING ABLE TO BE IN AS IS.....IT IS SELF DECEPTION IN 'CERTAINTY' OF THE DEFINED THAT COMPELS ADHERENCE IN A MAGNETIC  BLINDNESS...IT IS 'WALLING' AS SHE IS WALLED IN REARINGS BEHIND THE FIRES THAT PRECLUDE HER REAL SEXUAL AWAKENING...IT IS RAGE IN CONTROL AS THE WOMAN FILLED WITH CREATIVE ENERGIES IS GREATER THAN THE WOMAN SEEKING 'SEXUAL SATISFACTION'...

IT IS A DEATH NELL OF CONTROL SUPPRESSIONS INTO MASTURBATORY SELF ABSORPTIONS IN THE INABILITY TO DIFFERENTIATE AND CONNECT...IT IS THE MANIPULATIONS OF HUNGERS AND THE DISTORTION CLOCKS OF GHOST TEMPOS AS WITHDRAWAL FROM LIVE IS FEAR EXAGGERATIONS AND VULNERABILITY TO ALONENESS...

WARRING CLOCKS OF EMPIRE... AVATARS AND GIANTS


Thursday, December 17, 2009

CLOCKS OF DISTORTION- IMMERSIVENESS, SELF ABSORPTION AND FORTRESS CASTLING

IMAGINATION, BELIEF, TRANCE, IMPOSITION ORDERS, SHAME, GUILT, TERROR AND VANITY FEARS... THE IMMERSIVENESS OF EXPERIENCES IN ENCOUNTERS...FOR THE FORTRESSINGS BECOME MORE SO...THE PERSONALITY MEDIATIONS BECOME 'REALITY' AS WHAT IS REPRESSED AND HIDDEN IN SHADOWS IN THE HEART AND SOUL BECOME MORE DEFENSES INSTEAD OF OPPORTUNITIES OF CHANGE...
IT IS THE DISTORTIONS OF STRATEGIES OF DESIRE IN 'MAKE BELIEVE'. ENDURANCE, AND EMULATIONS TO SOMEHOW OVERCOME POWERLESSNESS...
IT IS VANITY FEARS DEFINING THE ADHERENCE TO DOGMAS OF SAFENESS THAT ESTABLISH CART BEFORE HORSE RHYTHMS...

IT IS 'NULL' IN THE VOID AS AVERSION MANIPULATION BELIEF IS GREATER THAN LIFE FORCE...FEAR OF LETTING GO...

IT IS AVERSION IN ANTICIPATORY THAT MAKES CANARY STATE 'PANICK' THE WAY THAT PRECLUDES HEALTH...THE DISTORTIONS OF COMPLIANCE AND DEFENSES FUEL ON FADS, FASHIONS AND THE HYSTERIA SENSUALIZATION DRAMAS OF STAYING IN ONES PLACE NO MATTER WHAT DEGREE OF ILLUSION, SELF DECEPTION AND CONFUSION IS MEDIATED TO HAVE SOMETHING THAT REPRESENTS SOMETHING ELSE...